Thursday, November 30, 2006

Daily Delight

Walang pasok dahil kay reming...

wala rin akong post dahil (makikita sa susunod na daily delight)

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Daily Delight

Paikli na ng paikli ang mga entry ko, marahil ito ay dahil repetitive na at tedious ang long hand writing na ang isnpirasyon ay hindi bumagsak sa klase.

Sino ang tatapos?

Kahit papano pahina na ang Manny Pacquaio fever na nagsimula nung matalo niya si Morales last week. Di ko pa rin makalimutan na nung araw ng makabalik si Maany sa Pilipinas tipong bayaning bayani ang pagsaalubong sa kanya, nakarinig pa nga ako ng balita na may balak daw magtayo ng monumento ni Manny. Nagkataon namang naguusap kami ni James nung madaling araw na yun at medyo sabog na kaya ganito ang lumabas na usapan:

mico ruiz: narinig ko pala kanina sa tv, magkakamonumento raw si pacman
james wyson: woeh?
mico ruiz : haha oo daw eh
mico ruiz : sana yun na yung bagong point 0
mico ruiz: outdated na si rizal eh
james wyson: bwisit..
mico ruiz: tsaka si rizal naman nagsulat lang
james wyson: ang sama nito
mico ruiz: anong panama niya sa right hook at left hook ni manny

Siyempre ang lahat nito katuwaan lang, pero ayun nga kahit papano sumagi sa isip ko na paano kung palitan ni pacman si rizal bilang pambansang bayani...

Sabi ko pareho lang sila ng kalaban, mga morales, legaspi, fernandez, velasquez at rodriguez mga ganon, mga tunog latino-spanish names. Nasabi ko rin na pareho rin silang lumaban para sa Pilipinas. pareho silang di katangkaran at parehong may bigote.

Tapos dito na nagumpisa ang tirada para kay Manny...

pangangatawan pa lang, si manny tipong tigasin, si rizal kung tutuusin sakitin pa nga raw.

isipin mo 0 crime rate daw tayo nung laban ni pacquiao, tapos sa dami ng Pinoy na pumusta kay manny tapos nanalo siya... aba sa dalawang yan pa lang makikita na naitaas na ni manny ang living conditions sa Pilipinas, (dagdag mo pa yung regalo niya sa baranggay niya kapag pasko)

anong sabi nila multi talented si rizal? fencing/writing/chicboy/smart? Si Manny may boxing/billiards/singing/chicks/at smart telecoms endorsements (with mcdonalds pa)

Eto na lang, sa loob ng 10 segundo magisip at magbigay ka nga ng 2 linya mula sa mga akda ni Rizal? Mahirap ba? Eh ganito kaya, magisip ka at magbigay ng 2 linya mula sa mga kanta ni Manny? (kantahin mo na rin para masaya, counted din dito kung ang sasabihin mo ay ikstrem, ikstrem magec seng)

pero eto seryoso na...

sabi ko nga katuwaan lang to pero sa paguusap namin kahit papano ay sinubukan kong gumawa ng kaso na si Rizal naman ang tatalo kay manny. Nakakahiya mang aminin pero ang bagal ng utak ko pagdating doon, oo nag aral ako ng mga bayani mula ata grade 1-6 at 1st year hs (hi ms. fay) nag history 165 pa ako, (sabi ko nga yayariin ako ng prof ko (si sir gealogo) kapag nabasa niya to) pero wala pa ring kwenta.

siguro ang knockout blow dito ay yung tanong sa akin ni james na...

bakit kapag pinag-aaralan si rizal di ka ganyan kasigasig?

oo, ako ang kabataan na inaasahan ni rizal...

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Daily Delight

Nakapag gym ulit ako kanina, hindi ko alam kung dulot lang ng pacquiao fever pero meron na silang nilaang lugar na para sa boxing ring. Ngayon mas lalo na akong naeenganyong mag boxing training. Siguro pagkalipas ng ilang buwan pa, kapag nak makita ko na na may tiyaga at oras ako para sa ganitong gawain, sasali ako. Oo nga pala may iba pang mga rason para magboxing lessons pero dahil hindi tayo close akin na lang yon.

Nag finance make up class kanina, wala lang hindi siya ganon kaboring dahil naintindihan ko yung lesson. Although the later part of the class super bored na ko (nahalata ko to dahil naglalaro na ako ng rolyo ng double sided tape)

Nakauwi naman ako ng matiwasay at kasulukuyang nagsusulat ng blog cj na to...

Monday, November 27, 2006

Daily Delight

Gertie (1996-2006)
Woof, woof woof.


Our dog died, It was weird seeing the dog dead, no more barks, whimpers, nothing just a body slumped over the pavement. 10 years is long for a dog I guess.

Her death placed some new perspectives in the way I view life...

1. That being a human in close proximity to me does not necessarily mean I'll have any compassion for you...


Cold as that sounds, it's true. There are people that I could think of right now who I wouldn't give a damn if they rolled over and died, However for our dog, it did touch me in a way where I was looking at her dead body remembering her. I guess this shows that it's not that I'm apathetic or cold or uncaring (because I did think about the dog) It's just that if I don't like a person then i don't.

2. I wanna die in a blaze of glory.

Di ko gustong higa, hingalo tapos patay lang. Siguro if I die, I would want it to happen while doing something I love doing.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Daily Delight 4

We were asked yesteday to make/sign a contract (contract can be found at the back) at naisip ko na ang inner artist ko ay si calvin bart. Isang artist na pinaghalong Bart Simpson at Calvin mula sa Calvin and Hobbes.

[Calvin Bart di ko pa nagagawa si calvin bart]

Sa totoo lang masasaktan ako kapag may nagbigay ng mababang grado sa akin sa CJ na to. iisipn kong tanga, mangmang at inutil ang magbibigay sa akin ng mababagan g gardo.

Siguroi sapat na yan para sa ngayon, lumalaki na at gumugulo na ang pagsulat ko, nangangahulugan lang na sawa at pagod na ako sa tiniginingining na Cj na to.

Friday, November 24, 2006

Daily Delight 3

Walang nangyayaring gusto kong isualt dito. kung may problema ka eto lang ang isasagot ko sa iyo.


[larawan ng middle finger ko]


Fuck off...

(mas maganda sana yan kaso dhail hindi ako drawing type makunteto ka na)



Sa totoo lang inis na inis na ako sa journal. Sinasayang mo ang oras ko. mnas gusto ko pang maging creative in other ways, in other places kaysa naman dito ako magbuhos ng oras.

Eto lalakihan ko kasi gusto kong mabasa nung nagrequire sa akin na gumawa ng CJ na to.

Mula sa Breathing ng Lifehouse
EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANT TO SPEAK TONIGHT, THAT'S ALL RIGHT, ALL RIGHT WITH ME.

EH!!! putcharagis naman, required magsulat ampotek. Three pages pa!!! Buti pa silang nasabihan nyan , ayos lang kung ayaw nila magsalita.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Daily Delight 2

As with all things, meron pa talagang interest sa umpisa, ang problema lang talaga is maintaining that interest.

Tulad dito, makikita sa unang paragraphs ang maliit na font, kahit papanong maayos na pagkakasunod sunod ng linya sa mga paragraphs. Pero habang patagal ng patagal, lumalaki ang font at spaces, nabababoy ang mga sinulat ko, minsan iniisip kong baguhin pero malay ko ba kung ang putanginang inner artist ko ay sadyang ganito.

Malay ba natin kung ang inner artist ko ay laging ganito o natural na ang inner artist ko ay iritable, sabog magsulat, walang pasensya, magulo ang handwriting at hindi marunong kung klean dapat talaga pumutol ng isang paragraph. Palamura rin ang inner artist ko.

Habang sinusulat ko itoo, lumipad ang promo card ng starbucks. nakuha ko toh sa (duh) Starbucks (tangina alanganamang sa Figaro o Seattle's best di ba?) at naisip ko 21 stickers x 100 (more or less) = 2100 para sa isang planner at insomnia. Putangina naman, gusto ko nung planner kaso isang sticker palang ako.

Kanina bago ako mag 3 hours of accounting part 2 (finance) kumain kami care of hans cyrus sa shakey'. Nandito ang mga larawan gamit ang aking sony 5.1 mp na camera

*htttp://micogold.multiply.com

(Sa dami ng larawa diyan kung ipapaste ko ang ilan tapos na sana ang 3 pages dito) kaya lalaktaw ako ng malaki para hindi naman mainis ang inner artist ko)

Ayan spaat na yan, 3 pages naman na to. Isipin niyo tangina kumpara sa bond paper mas malaki ang sketchpad na 9 x 12.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Daily Delight 1

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko gusto ang pagsulat ko dito sa creative journal na ito. Naniniwala akong paradox ang sabihing be honest to your creative self while impsoing (no matter how nicely imposed) us to write a 3 page long hand stuff in this journal. i also believe that writing here is killing the very essence of whatever creative juice I have in my body. You see, I believe that creativity is not something that is turned on and off, that its like a river, flowing continously, that thought should flow freely. However to tell us to write when it is not in our hearts to write (at least not for this moment) is similar to putting a dam into the river. Yes it could turn out helpful and perhaps it is for the best, however I think that it still impedes, destroys the river, that the flow's disruption makes the rive lose its enchanting luster. I am very much tempted to not write anything else in this fucked up idea of a creative journal, however I fear for my grade, and I fear that I would not be able to fulfill the requirements of the course.

I also think that this CJ is killing my blog. If I would spend time writing, I would rather do it on my blog than here. I communicate better in that blog instead of here (yes, it's the 1st entry but I know myself( . I do think that after writing the first 3 pages of this CJ, I would stop being very involved in it, and just write things that I want to write in my blog. Because in all reality, my blog is my creative journal. It is where I put myself in , it is where my creativity is, it is where I am in touch with th every essence of my soul, my mind and my heart.



Hate...
is such a beautiful world,

AND I HATE THIS CREATIVE JOURNAL
(Signed)
http://Golden-X.Blogspot.com


I still hate you, but in a way you have helped me figure out a way to integrate the blog features of my multiply, friendster, myspace and others with my main blog. What I'm gonna do is still continue writing in my blog and then just write snippets, previews or other similar forms of teasers then just include the link and the title of the post of my other blogs.

So it would appear like this:

Title: Blah Blah
A post on blah Blah and blah to read more click (link to my blog)

So there, perhaps the CJ is not that stupid after all.

CJ2

Para maiwasan ang pagkamatay ng blog, ang gagawin ko ay isulat na lang kung anumang nilagay ko sa blog dito sa cj, lahat ng posts na ang titulo ay daily delight ay tumutukoy sa entry ko sa CJ. Naisip ko na makakatulong ito sa typing skills ko at kahit papano ay makakabawas sa pagkainis ko sa putanginang Creative journal na yan.

BABALA!!!

Babala! merong tinuturing na blog killer, tinatawag siyang creative journal...

Unti unti niyang pinapagod ang nagmamayari ng blog sa pamamagitan ng pagpilit sa tao sa pagsulat dito. Humihingi ito ng tatlong pahina na tala sa kung ano ang nagawa mo sa araw. Dahil dito maaring marindi ang blogger at tamarin nang sumulat sa online blog dahil hindi naman nabibigyan ng grado ang kanyang online blog samantalang ang CJ ay malaking bahagi sa pangkalahatang grado ng magaaral...

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Metlog...

This post should have been done Thursday, however I fell asleep at around 9:00 pm and didn't wake up until 3 in the morning so I didn't have the time to make it...

We were discussing Hans Gadamer's Man and Language in Philo 102 class and suddenly Sir Strebel mentioned a term while talking about the evolution of language. He said he was channel surfing when he came upon the term METLOG. It was able to pique my interest so using the powers of the internet I searched for the two words that make up METLOG (metrosexual and jologs) and got these:

Metrosexual:
Metrosexuality is the trait of an urban male who has a strong aesthetic sense and spends a great amount of time and money on his appearance and lifestyle.

Jologs:
1. any person deemed to be acting, exhibiting behaviors, in a manner similar to the commonly observed behavior of slums teenagers
2. gaudy, un-elegant, without refinement in taste

Strong aesthetic sense doesn't really describe me though I do spend a great amount of time (not necessarily great amount of money though) on trying to improve my appearance and lifestyle. On the other hand the 1st definition for jologs is a bit too discriminatory for my tastes so I guess I'll go with the second one.

So there just enriching my philosophical knowledge :P

As a side note, I really had a hard time pinpointing what jologs really means, many definitions for such a commonly used word that it's really hard to tell what a person really means when he/she mentions the term. However I found one that seems to be one of the more believable terms:

"isn't jologs an amalgamation of "dyaryo-yosi-tulog"? used to describe tambays of the 60s and 70s"

I guess if we take it from that, a description of tambays or their culture, then we could see how it could snowball into the connotations that come with the term now.

Monday, November 13, 2006

balik tanaw...

Ilang oras na lang, simula na ng panibagong sem. 2nd sem na, pero bago ko lagyan ng bagong leksyon ang utak ko, naisip ko na tignan kung ano nga ba talaga ang natutunan ko sa mga klase ko noong sem na nagdaan.

Nakahiga ako sa kama ng biglang tumalon sa utak ko yung isang tanong ni Bob Ong sa isa sa mga libro niya (kung di ako nagkakamali dun sa ABNKKBSNPLKo) sabi dito: Ano ang natutunan mo?

Philosophy 101 (Card Grade: C+)
Sa totoo lang hindi ko nagamay ni katiting ng mga itinurong teorya o pamamaraan ng mga kilalang pilosopo (tinginingining na marcel at parmenides yan). Siguro ang natutunan ko ay ang kahalagahan ng teamwork (hindi naman pandaraya sa test na uri ng teamwork yung discussions lang naman tungkol sa thesis statements).

History 166 (Card Grade: C+)
Eto yung parang sci 10 ko nung 2nd year ako. Hindi naman sa ipinagmamalaki ko pero lagi nanaman akong tulog sa klase dito. Pero dahil sa lagi akong tulog sa discussions, natutunan ko ang kahalagahan ng pagkuha sa mga readings, hindi na sapat yung manghihiram ka ng reading ng kakalese tapos cram 10 minutes before the test dahil lahat ng kakilala mo ay nagaaral din. Nakuha ko rin ang kahalagahan ng pagiging gising sa tamang oras (i.e. kapag may importanteng slide na pinapakita o kapag katabi na yung prof)

Marketing 101 (Card Grade: B)
Kung tatanungin ako ng tungkol sa kahit ano mang tinuro sa marketing ngayon wala ata akong maisasagot maliban sa kung ano ang 4p's. Pero kung tutuusin kahit papano pwede naman talagang daanin na sa common sense at pagiintindi sa sitwasyon na iprinisinta yung mga sagot. sabi nga ni Sir, when it comes to the real world, no one would really ask you what the 4p's are or the different terms and stuff, it's the application of those that come into play. Siguro ang natutunan ko dito ay kung saan makakahanap ng murang long sleeves para sa pang defense namin... (sa may gilid ng 2nd floor ng ali mall). Natuto rin akong tumambay sa starbucks dahil sa marketing. Unang rason dahil maingay sa bahay kapag gumagawa na ng case papers at pangalawa para makisaksak ng laptop at celphone sa starbucks nung minalas at nawalan ng kuryente ang buong metro manila.

Theology 131 (Card Grade: B+)
Masaya tong klase na to. Si Fr. Rexay maraming nasabing maituturing na noteworthy pero basta ang pinakanatutunan ko dito, hindi lahat ng mukhang kasalanan ay kasalanan. meron ka pang "it depends" na pwedeng gamitin kapag nagiisip ka na kung pupunta ka ba sa langit o impiyerno at nagbibilang ka na ng mga nagawa mo sa mundo.

CS 30 (Card Grade: B+)
I learned that Confidence can really go a long way... Knowing that you are "in your element" enables you to go and speak your heart out and not fear mucking up. That feeling of finally knowing what you are saying (as compared to previous subjects) gives you the power to go full blast as you fire words after words of explanation. I still remember that nearly effortless tirade I had in discussing the prototype website for our group's panel defense which leads us to the next thing I learned... that letters are not numbers :P

Ok ayan, show time na ulit. 2nd sem na...

Monday, November 06, 2006

Everywhere...

I consider the past Sunday as the last day of vacation. This because the week ahead requires me to go to school for getting my advisement slip, grades and reg form. Then enrollment and payment. These things would actually just take probably a couple of days from the week, but it sure breaks the days when I could just bum at home, watch tv, listen to music or surf the net all day.

Despite the need to wake up early for me to beat the rush in getting the advisement slips and grades and stuff, again I can't sleep. For some reason I think I've really been affected by yesterday's "events." As i said in last night's post, it seems pretty ironic that when things seem like they are supposed to stop, the more they come back to you, the more they attach themselves to you.

Cause everytime I look
You're never there
And everytime I sleep
You're always there

Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes
It's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?


For some reason I'm trying to fit the events yesterday into that song. It seems possible but there are some parts where it doesn't really jive with the idea.

This is really getting frustrating I don't know why I'm very very affected by the events. Could it be that I have something else going on within me...?

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Liwanag kang dagling sumilaw sa 'king mga mata...

Hindi ako makatulog ngayon, kung titignan ng marami ituturing na nilang normal yung ganito sa akin, lagi naman daw akong nagpupuyat, ganito naman daw talaga ang buhay ko. Pero ngayong gabi (o umaga, depende na lang sa kung anong perspective ang nais mong gamitin) na ito alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ito pangkaraniwang katamaran sa pagtulog.

May mga bagay kanina na maituturing kong panggising sa isang pananaginip, ika nga ni Pat Velasquez, "ano lang yan para ka lang sinampal ng karanasan/katotohanan." Nakakaaliw na ilang araw lang ang nakalipas noong nadama ko na tila abot kamay na ang minsang inakalang hindi makakamtan, tapos kanina inabutan na ako nang realidad. Ang realidad na sa bawat pangarap, panaginip at pagasa, may kalakip na pagkabigo.

Ngayon lang ata ako nawalan ng sasabihin upang maibahagi kung ano ang nararamdaman ko. Marami akong gustong sabihin tungkol sa nangyari, nghunit hindi mahanap ang mga salitang makapagpapalabas nito. Isang bagay na gusto mong ipagsigawan pero wala ka namang boses. At gusto ko talagang magsalita dahil isa ito sa mga paraan ko sa pagpurga ng emosyon pero yun nga ngayon blanko ako.

Nakakatawa lang kasi na imbis na pakawalan na sa isipan ang kung anumang pangarap ang dating namuo sa utak ko mas lalo pa itong pumipintig at binigyan ng kahulugan. Sabi nga nung kanta

"Putulin man ang tali ay
Sadyang walang kawala
Sa pagkaakit at di paglapit
Nananalangin at umaasa"

Kung kelan nga naman pinaharap sa katotohonan dun ko pa mas magagamay kung gaano pala kalalim yung mga pangarap ko. Ganon lang siguro ang takbo ng buhay ngayon. Tapos na kasi birthday ko kaya back to normal na haha. Unintentional birthday gift lang yung naganap haha.

Hindi naman siguro naiintindihan ng kung sino mang bumabasa ng blog na ito ang tinutukoy ko pero yun nga sinusubukan ko pa ring dumada dahil sabi ko nga sa taas paraan ng pagpurga o pagpapakawala ito para sa akin, pero sa totoo lang ang isang linyang to ay halos sapat na para kahit papano ihayag ang diwa ng mga binabanggit ko ngayon.

"Nararapat bang pigilan ang Damdamin na lalong mahulog sa iyo?"

Friday, November 03, 2006

19

Another November 2 has passed, I am now 19 years old...

I didn't really go to great lengths to celebrate my birthday, actually the only thing that makes it different from any other day was the birthday greetings and the dinner with the family.

I guess I started day by watching simpsons, then chatting with Jeerah and James, texting early greeters, then playing word racer with Jeerah til around 4:30 in the morning. And because I stayed up quite late, I woke up at 11:00 and wasn't really able to do much haha. I just watched some tv, went to the gym, went back home played some games on the computer, then went out again to buy a webcam. After that a family dinner, played poker online, chatted a bit, and that's basically it.

Really not that special or anything I guess. Oh yeah, I'm 0 for everything on the wish list I made so that's a bummer. The Lakers won though so it's still good.


365 more days til I stop being a teenager...

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

wishlist...

Was watching an NBA game a while ago. The Lakers (my favorite team) against the Suns. Saw Andrew Bynum, the 19 year old starting center for the Lakers play like an NBA Live version of himself. I remember in the dynasty mode of NBA Live 06 I'd put him as starting center (along with Kwame, Lamar, Kobe and whoever else is available) and watch him decimate opposing centers because of his height and build. NBA Live 07's no different as I use him (having traded away Mihm) as a primary center (Odom being the PG and Kwame being PF, Radmanovic at SF and Kobe at SG) and again dominate just by his sheer size and bulk.

And boom after the first quarter saw Phoenix erupt for 41 points, I got tired of watching and just decided to go online. However the fan in me decided to check back on the TV and low and behold it seems like Andrew Bynum was being controlled by me in a laker dynasty in NBA Live.

However despite the story, the only key word here is 19


00, 19 sa ilang oras na lang magiging 19 years old na ako. At dahil magbibirthday na rin naman ako, naisip ko maglagay ng wishlist ng regalo haha umaasa na may mga magbabasa nito at maisip na regaluhan ako ng kung ano man ang nakasulat dito. Asa pa! Pero libre lang naman ang umasa di ba? hahaha

Ang ilalagay ko lang naman ay mga materyal na bagay, kahit papano masasabi ko na maswerte na ako sa mga bagay na tinuturing ng mga taong priceless...

(in order of priority hehe)
1. Bagong Computer
- oo alam kong kahit papano kaya pa ng computer ko ang mga applications na lumalabas ngayon (hindi lang ang mga laro) pero napagisipisip ko kasi na halos dead end na ang computer na ito. Ang AGP slot ay pumapatay sa pagasa ng part upgrade dahil ang karaniwang lumalabas na bagong video card ngayon ay PCI-E cards na. At kapag pinalitan naman ang motherboard damay na rin dito ang processor, video cards, at memory modules so in short bagong computer na.
- I would really want one of those new fangled dual core things or the Amd equivalent Athlon 64 ata yun, then a top of the line videocard (if possible yung dual video card na rin, i think they call it sli crossfire or something), 2 gigs of ram, and 300gigs of hard drive space. I'd also love to have an lcd monitor (mas mura daw sa kuryente to) and a pretty good cooling system.
2. Lots of Money (doesn't everybody?)
- pandagdag sa pambili ng computer (i guess that kind of setup would cost around P60,000)
3. XBOX 360 or PS3
- kaso mahal daw cd's nito so mapapagastos pa ako lalo at siguradong wasak ang pagaaral ko kapag nagkaroon ako nito so wag na haha
4. digital SLR camera
- inggit pa rin ako dun sa camera ni RJ

(wow puro mahal ata to haha yayariin ako nung magulang ko kapag nakita nila to hahaha)

5. External Hard drive with case na rin
- Para mas madali magbackup ng files
- maganda na yung mga 100 gig nito ahaha

(teka mahal pa rin ata to)

6. Shades
- ewan mahilig talaga ako sa shades...
- di ko lang type yung mga parang bubuyog type aviator shades

(hmm hindi naman ata practical)

7. Shirts
- gusto ko yung eurofit haha sabi ni kuya trainer (nakalimutan ko pangalan hehe) tumitino na raw yung balikat/dibdib ko so sige ipagmalaki natin haha pero dahil malaki pa rin yung tiyan ko di pa pwede yung hard core body fit type.
- black or red as usual
8. Jogging Pants/Track suit
- hmm wala trip lang ahaha
- black or red as usual
9. Pants
- tumangkad ako ng kaunti (buti naman 19 na ako eh 2 years na lang at wala na raw akong itatangkad pa) at may mga pantalon na akong bitin
- at least hindi masikip, bitin lang talaga
- maong, slacks whatever else

Yun haha wishlist lang naman, siyempre appreciated pa rin naman kahit anong regalo, kung meron man o wala :)

Haha