Tuesday, April 26, 2005

The Love in Her Eyes...

Hmm the blog title? it came from the title of one of my drawings...

(check it out at by clicking here)

Kanina nanaginip ako, one of the best dreams I had about her (being with her)...

Ngayon alam ko na yung ibig sabihin nung kumanta ng lines na:

"Kung Ito'y panaginip lamang, ayoko ng magising"

hehe

on a side note:

kapag gumising ako, katabi ko siya, kasama siya... kaya masayang gumising

Currently Listening to:
South Border - Ikaw Nga

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Acceptance...

To Faye: Thanks for remaining by my side...

In this blog is a chronicle of what I was...

Thanks for accepting me, after knowing what I was before, thanks for loving me despite all that...

I do hope that in our decision to go forward with each other we become like the catchphrase of Johnson's Baby shampoo:

No More Tears...

Im gonna state what I feel in the simplest terms possible:

Faye, I love you

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Pope Benedict XVI

I Fell asleep quite early yesterday, around 10:00 (well early at least in my definition)...

But at around 11:30pm I woke up, I actually thought that it was already a new day. But when I looked at the clock on my celphone I realized that it was still night time. I guess I woke up because of Vicky Morales' tone of excitement regarding the smoke that was coming out of the Conclave Chimney thingie, She was not sure wether the smoke was white (which would mean a new pope was elected) or black (no pope yet). And since there was no "tolling of the bell" signal yet the people were really left clueless...

So I went to the tv area and just watched the cluelessness of the people. I was watching for a good 15 minutes when suddenly the bell started moving and I heard the bell tolling. The CNN news crew suddenly got excited and started saying "We Have A New Pope" but even if we had a new pope, the question about who the pope was still remained...

So the poeple waited for the announcement. After about 20-30 minutes a cardinal emerged and anounced the name in Latin. At first he just mentioned the first name, Joseph, and with that I realized that there was one "strong" papabili which had the first name Joseph and that was Joseph Ratzinger, and after a little while the cardinal made it official and announced the last name Ratzinger. And also his chosen name Benedict XVI.

Then I just waited for the Pope's first blessing, and after it I went back to sleep...

Hmm I kinda like the name Ratzinger, does have a nice ring to it don't you think? I also like the way they called him the Panzer Cardinal ahaha. Too bad he had to change it to Benedict XVI cause I really liked the way Ratzinger sounded ahaha.

Hmm on a sidenote: If he was a basketball player and he had that name, it would be so cool ahaha... Ratzinger for three! or Ratzinger with a crossover dribble or The Panzer shoots! hehe anywayz...

On a serious note, I do hope the new pope would also be able to inspire people like the previous pope did... Although I know that it really would be a tough act to follow.

Currently Listening to:
Jaboom Twins - Sumusunod Sa Galaw

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Wala lang na-notice ko lang yung uhm mga vanities ko ahaha

Well ngayon nagfafacial wash na ako (well dati pa naman) pero ngayon uhm may kasama nang astringent ahahaha. Tapos uhm yun nga nagpafacial pa ako dati. Hehehe

Tapos uhm uhm what else yun lang naman ata...

Ay onga yung suklay sa back pocket (although matagal ng kasama ng wallet, susi, panyo, at cell phone yan sa mga things sa bulsa ko).

Tapos yung paginom ng Cherifer para tumangkad wahaha, shucks sana nga tumangkad pa ako...

Currently Listening to:
Sarah Geronimo - Can This Be Love

Addiction

Addicted ako sa Choco Mallow Pie ng Jollibee

haha sarap kasi eh ahaha...

Anywayz, now the household has a videocam, but it sucks since It doesn't have a computer connector thingie like i saw in digital camcorder haha, so much for editing ahaha, I guess I really need a capture card or sumthing ahahaha

I want a new mobile phone, my phone is falling apart ahaha. It's supposedly shockproof but even the housing is breaking down ahaha so how can it be shock proof if I can wreck it with a strong push ahaha.

I;m still waiting for the new pope, the conclave has not yet decided on one as of this blog.

Oh well life :)

Currently Listening to:
Dana - Maybe

If-Then-Else

at the decision point of the program:

If a<93
-If a<88
--If a<80
---If a<74
----If a<68
-----If a<60
-----"F"
-----else "D"
----else "C"
---else "C+"
--else "B"
-else "B+"
else "A"

Feel ko may mali dun sa pinagaralan namin kanina :) (uhm by the way di ko na sinama yung mga nesting signs thingie)

Currently Listening to:
Hale - Broken Sonnet

Friday, April 15, 2005

RANT!

I hated my Random Number (1574)

Now I'm stuck sa isang 3:00-4:30 class grr! And because I didn't advance any subjects yun lang ang class ko for the whole day damn!

Hayy at least more time to prepare oh welpz...

Currently Listening to:
Initial D - Dont you (forget about my love)

Monday, April 11, 2005

Relief

Went to Ateneo to get my grades uhm judging from the post's title I guess ok naman ahaha...

Tal's statement:
Woah bakit ang payat mo?!?!

ahahaha coolness pumapayat daw ako (either ako yung kausap niya or si dentzen pero basta ako yun walang kokontra).

semsestral qpi: 2.89
yearly qpi: 2.86
(so i guess 2.83 yung 1st sem ko ahaha)

Uhm it just shows na I'm just an average college student uhm mediocre pa rin rarr ahaha Ph well I'll try to do better next year :)

Currently Listening to:
Initial D - You

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Random Musings

Medyo hypermode ang brain ko kahapon, isip ng isip ng kung ano anong mga bagay...

Thoughts on

...Buko Pandan
Hehe kala niyo ba serious? uhm mamaya na yun... haha nakakaaddict ang buko pandan. Salad man yan or Zagu or Ice cream or Karambola or Milkshake ahaha masarap yan
...Full House
Na gusto ko pa lang panuorin tong koreanovela na to. But since hindi ko na siya naumpisahan at nasubaybayan locally uhm James (kung nababasa mo to) pwedeng pahiram?
...Loveholic
This Kpop Band/Group is so cool ahaha I hope James will find the second album.
...Taco Bell
The nachos that they serve had been generously sprinkled with salt ahaha then dipping it in cheese wahhaha saltiness
...Fighting Fishes
I want two of them ahaha. The pure red one and the pure bluish/aquamarine-ish one
...Facials
It takes up about an hour in your life ahaha, and you have to do some waiting ahaha wait untill cream uhm settles on your face I guess ahahaha.
...Friends
Sometimes may mga bagay silang ginagawa para sayo na hindi mo alam. Akala mo minsan nagiisa ka sa iyong mga gawain pero there are some people who are actually supporting you ng hindi mo alam ahahaha.
...Making A Difference
While watching the pope's funeral on cnn last friday, I heard the anchor saying "Here is the man who has made a difference." Well, it has always been one of my dreams to make a difference, maybe not on an international scale heck maybe not even national. But at least touch the people that know me, make a difference among my friends and other people that I meet in life. Make a difference in a way na if I die, then people ask about me, they will not say ahh si Mico LANG pero ahh si Mico siya yung (blah blah)...
...Love
Well about love I thought about two things. The first is that I want to give her ( I would give the name but she doesn't want me to) the love that she can lean on no matter what. A love which can be held on to in times of trouble and problems. Yung parang kahit sobrang hirap na at gulo ng situation at kung ano-ano pa masasabi na lang niya na Ahh basta mahal ako ni Mico... tapos kahit papano everything would be a little bit better...

The other thing is uhm let us say parang conceited to. Sana yung tipong love na maibibigay ko sa kanya eh yung type na would lead her into being proud of saying na mahal niya ako. Yung tipong kahit sa friends and family kaya niyang sabihin na ha may mahal ako eh, si mico... tapos she would be willing to face uhm the thingies thrown to her because of that proclamation. Ewan kasi parang the way I view it, when the time comes na kaya na niyang gawin yun, siguro ibig sabihin nun na sobrang comfortable siya sa pagmamahal na ibinigay ko sa kanya...


Currently Listening to:
Loveholic - Key With Rust



Friday, April 08, 2005

Promise

Hmm nakita ko lang sa status message ni alden at napauhm ako ahaha...

Promise me you'll be here when I wake up because I need you...

Uhm wala lang yun lang...

Currently Listening to:
Daniel Bedingfield - If you're not the one (remix)

Middle of the night

I woke up at around 2am ahaha can't sleep so I'll just blog this...

I was browsing thru the solid07 forums when I saw this line...

Promises Given By You To Me Will Be Forever In Mind

uhm ok ahaha I kinda get the feeling... that's all ahaha can't really say much

Currently Listening to:
Three Degrees - Precious Moments

Thursday, April 07, 2005

No Fear

Face Your Fears, Live Your Dreams...

Come on, let's do it, let us cast our fears aside, let us try to attain our dreams, free from all the worries that may come in the future...

Trust yourself, Trust me, and most of all trust the emotion...

Currently Listening to:
Dionne Warwick - I'll Never Love this way again

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Kiss Me, Hug Me and Never Ever Let Me Go...

hmm shall i say emotionally spent? hehe pero ewan i hope may silbi yung pagkagamit sa emotion ko...

Ii just poured my heart and soul into one conversation, funny that even if this must have been the (more or less) 15th time it happened to us, I'm still whole, we are still together, I'm still breathing her name, still holding on to her, still loving her...

Many times this has happened, many things said, many reasons on why she has to go, a few reasons why I want her to stay, but much more reasons to love her...

For now we are ok, she told me, and I find myself believing... I know that going for this is going to be hard, but even now I still find comfort in the fact that by doing this, by going through all this there might just be a chance that she will be with me. This events may happen again for the 16th,17th or 100th time but I'm willing to take it, It is painful that I know but I can feel that this pain would be more bearable than the pain that comes if she would leave me...

Knowing these kinds of circumstances I realize that to fight for this may not be the most rational or practical thing to do. But as Alden said...

hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable...

My heart isn't unbreakable... so I guess I will never be practical when it comes to this...

Thought this may sound selfish but this time I'm more determined to keep my heart intact because I realize the pain that it would cause me if she leaves like this, I will not allow my heart to break thus I shall fight for her...

She is my happiness, and I'm holding onto her... Words that she said are more than enough assurance that I'm doing the right thing...

I Love Faye Librojo Ibasco... At least to the extent of what I know of love. I love her though I can't really describe how I know. And though her circumstances try to dampen the emotion I still find myself burning with that emotion I feel for her. Though events us like this cause us pain, I love her. Though I haven't touched her, I love her. And although she may not know it, I still love her...

I guess the things that I do reflect the way I feel for her. I guess I wouldn't really try to hold on or strive to never give up if I didn't believe in what we feel for each other. Though at times I seem doubtful, filled with questions and uncertainties, deep down (if you can believe me) I never waivered. Even now I still hold firm to that belief... that's why I strive, that's why I continue.

I try not to say
the words that might scare you away
I know down inside
You are mine and I'm your true love
Please no more dreaming...


Kinda conceited don't you think? But in a way I do feel the same, I do hope it comes true now, I do hope we start putting our dream of being with each other into reality.

So many uncertainties, so many things that are unsure, plenty of confusion and nearly broken dreams but one thing stil holds true:

I'll love Faye till the rest of my days....

No matter who tries to stop me, no matter what they do to me, I will. This is my belief, my leap of faith in the emotion that engulfs my very existence right now. Im already swept away by it, and there's no denying it, I'm actually enjoying this emotion, and I've got nothing else to do about it except believe...

I'll Kiss You, Hug You and Never Ever Let You Go...

Currently Listening to:
Loveholic - Kiss Me Hold Me

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Nothing




























if nothing lasts forever...







































....will you be my nothing?




















Monday, April 04, 2005

Romance

Nanood ako nung queer eye for the straight guy ahaha nice...

Kakaaliw kasi may Filipino roots yung straight guy and yung wife niya ahaha. Kakaaliw yung mga bading lalo na si Carson (hehe thanks kay Faye at nalaman ko kung sino siya) dahil parang aliw na aliw sila dun sa guy.


Ang ganda, ang romantic nung mga scenes oh well ahahaha


Hmm... "I guess being apart actually helped us since we just talk on the phone, and it helps because it somewhat forces us to speak..." <- Hmm i dunno, pero siguro kaya naging ganito kami kasi uhm kahit papano ganyan yung situation although di naman ganon kapareho it's still quite similar ahaha...


wala na after nun, lunch tapos naligo ako tapos kumain tapos nag check ng email ahahaha
sumakit yung ulo ko afterwards kaya natulog na ako ahaha...


well ayos na ako ngayon kaya eto blog na :)

Currently Listening to:
Paolo Santos - Moonlight Over Paris

Sunday, April 03, 2005

BABOY

Haha So darn hot hehe...

I dunno something about this summer is making me eat a whole lot ahaha tumataba na ako rarrr... So today ang last day ng pagiging baboy ahaha, diet nga at uhm jogging ewan ahahaha bahala na wahaha. Basta gusto ko lumiit yung tummy ko ahahaha...

Currently Listening to:
Elton John - Can you Feel the Love Tonight