Friday, February 25, 2005

Freeze

Late na ko nakatulog nung Thursday...

Hayy problem again. Hindi ko na alam anong gagawin ko. Hayy antay na lang siguro ulit. Yun lang naman ata ang magagawa ko eh uhm meron bang term as active waiting? hayy

Sa school medyo halata daw na down ako hehe. Siyempre hindi na ako nagkwento. Lalo lang sumasakit eh rarr. Hayy life talaga...

Pagdating ko sa bahay, tulog kaagad ako. Sabi ko pag nagising ako ng 5:30 or 6:00 pupunta pa ako sa Aura (the ACTM Yearend concert) kaso nagising ako ng 5:45 hehe kaya uhm di na ko pumunta. Not to mention I was also waiting for a call that may never even come...

Tapos nagaantay ako nung tawag pinanood ko yung 100 days with Mr. Arrogant (isa itong korean film), shit ang ganda niya hehe. Dapat 100 days lang sila magsasama kaso may nangyari sa loob ng 100 araw na yun na biglang hindi na nila kayang mawalay sa isa't isa. Pinaghihiwalay sila ng circumstances pero gumawa talaga sila ng paraan para magkasama... (hmm kung 1 week with Mr. Arrogant to siguro kahit comedy siya ngumangawa pa rin ako :P)

Aba may nagtext, so siyempre nagantay na ako hehe, natuwa ako na tama yung decision ko to stay sa house...

Tapos habang nakikinig sa Save the Last Dance for Me song na Give My Love (English) ni Edward Chun. I came across the line:
Know that, Times can't change my love for you...

Wala lang, yan na lang sana ang marealize niya... at hmm 1:35 na wala pa ring tawag ahahah. Oh well... :(

Currently Listening to:
Save the Last Dance for Me OS T - Give My Love (English)

Monday, February 21, 2005

D~Valentine Fair

Last week, the D~Valentine's fair took most of my time hehe. It was fun though so Ok lang..

Monday:
Setting up. Hehe Medyo mahirap since yung booth namin gumagamit ng tents kaso ang naiwang magkakasama ay Ako, Si Krice, si Bianca, si Tracy, si Khristian at si Nikki hmm medyo vertically challenged kami hehe buti na lang dumating yung isang guy at hehe naset up din.

Auntie Anne's was a super success, grabe hindi na ata nakapag-break yung mga pretzel people hehe. Yey.

Test sa PE 101, hehe hassle pero feel ko naman naipasa ko siya kahit papano.

Evaluation: Kinda Ok, not as difficult as I imagined it to be.

Tuesday:
Dahil may 3 hour break ayun tumambay ako sa booth hehe.

Ayun nothing really big happened during the day, at uhm mabenta pa rin ang Auntie Anne's. Nice nga since di na rin niya kailangan ng mga people na babantay.

Uhm nung gabi medyo nagkagulogulo ang life ko uhm Basta parang na Mirror Mirror (kanta ng M2m) siya hehe. Grabe ang drama ko pala hehe. Oh well...

Wednesday:
Luckily naayos din ang problem, hayy good thing mapagpasensya at mapagpatawad si Faye :P hehe

Anywayz, wala pa ring bago, buhay pa rin ang mga booth at thriving pa rin ang Auntie Anne's.

May wall climbing thingie sa Quad kaso tinatamad pa ako hehe I decided na bukas ko na lang siya aakyatin.

Thursday:
Another 3 hour break ahaha.

Kasama si Ate Denise, umakyat kami ng Wall. Hehe Nice I was able to go to the top part, hehe but I guess I got tired since I wasn't able to rapel (correct spelling?) na hehe.

The booth was ok, and hayy Auntie Anne's still gets a lot of customers though not as plenty as monday ( I think).

Friday:
Last Nstp thingie. Ayos lang hehe

Tapos Pack up time. cool medyo hassled lang kasi ang dami palang products and stuff, buti na lang nandun si khristian and Vanjo. Hmm Hassle lang wasn't able to meet Faye today ahahaa rarr. Oh well...


Overall thingie:
Saya ng life. Hehe kahit na nakakapagod masaya pa rin.,
Nakakasawa ang donuts ng ciello, ang pretzels ng auntie anne's because they are expensive ahaha.

Currently Listening to:
S#arp - You're Lips Like Warm Coffee

Friday, February 18, 2005

Flashback (part 2)

So eto ang part 2 ng flashback hehe damn, nagpile up na siya. I really need an unlimited card again ehehe.

Friday:

Immediately after class went to Megamall to meet with Iking and play some Initial D. I made a new car (actually same but different color and different settings) and played until I reached a level that I can't beat (against keisuke takahashi) hehe well i guess i was playing for about an hour.

Then met up with iking for the Job interview. Turns out it was a networking thing. I guess I was kinda disappointed I was hoping it was something like a salescrew but oh well that's life.

Kinda proud of myself for sticking to the no meat fasting every Friday.
Kinda sad she wasn't able to call.

Saturday:
Final Day of insertion in Baseco.

We were tasked with cleaning Cement Bricks hehe. Hassle since some upperclassmen were not doing anything haha kakaasar. Haha kaaliw din na isang panandaliang buhos ng ulan lang at medyo wasted na yung paglilinis namin ahaha.

I guess I miss her so much ahaha napatawag tuloy ako kahit sa cel lang wahaha. It was short but uhm sweet. And I don't mind spending for another 23 minutes with her...

Sunday:
Was planning on hearing mass in Ali Mall, but then I can't understand the priest so I just left.

Played some games and wrote some stuff hehe. Ayos na.

Sun's 24/7 really helps when you miss someone hehehe.

(Last part: The d~valentines fair thingie tomorrow)

Currently Listening to:
Final Fantasy X - Pray

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Flashback

Hehe I guess I got pretty busy.

Well actually not really busy, but for some unknown reason there seems to be a shortage of unlimited prepaid cards here in cubao so I was forced to buy a 30 hour card hehe. So in a way, I guess I'm also conserving my card.

Wednesday:
Ash Wednesday, heard my first ever mass at Gesu. Also the day of our Pe presentation. I guess we really sucked since we lacked preperation for it hehe Oh well. Next time I guess...

Thursday:
Math long test, kinda hard. I studied but I guess I failed it hehe ( no results up to now). well I did my best (but I guess my best wasn't good enough)

After the math test, I went to the table-tennis area to watch Vanjo and Euric play. Hehe I was able to play a game too. I'm not good at it (heck I don't know how to play) but after playing with Vanjo for a while, I guess I improved a bit.

Then shot some hoops with Vanjo. I was able to hit some 3s with the new shot release that I practiced hehe. I hope this good shooting touch stays.

Then filipino class, hehe I don't know, nothing really happened during this class (either that or I just can't remember today).

After Fil. Khristian, Chino and I went to play Ps2 at hobby stop. Hehe I played the most exciting game I've ever played in Nba live 2005 against Khsistian. I was using the rockets and he was using the suns. He had a four point lead with about 20 seconds to go. I called timeout, and fired a 3 point shot using Yao Ming hehe. It banked then went in and out and in. ehehe Then Juwan Howard was able to make a steal and hit a go ahead dunk hehe. After that T-Mac was able to make a steal and made a pass to Eric Piatkowski for a three which sealed the win.

After Hobby stop we went back to Ateneo for the Actm d~valentine meeting. Hmm it was ok, not that much problems hehe but it was still kinda stressful.

After that 3po. Nice play, nice videoke sections. And the girl who played Polly's kinda cute.

To be continued sa next post...

Currently Listening to:
U2 - With or Without You

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Pagmulat

Hmm hehe actually nung minulat ko ang mata ko nung Linggo uhm medyo puro muta siya...
medyo naluluha luha kasi ako bago ako matulog. (sige fine aamin na umiiyak ako nun :P)

Hmm ewan, pero nung lumipas ang oras, nagkaroon ako ng mga realizations. Kaya ayun hehee napatigil ang kalungkutan at onti-onting napapalitan ng kaligayahan.

Conversation between Me and my inner voice:
MICO(me)
mico(inner voice)

mico: psst gago bakit ba ang lungkot mo?
MICO: Eh kasi baka wala na eh, wala na yung kung ano man yun (hehe secret ko na yun)
mico: Isa ka pa lang hunghang!
MICO: Huwaat? How can you say that?
mico: eh hindi ba sinabi naman niya that She'll fight for her happiness (and she said that her happiness is you) at that She'll try to call you/talk with you everytime she can, and most important of all dude, she told you that she loves you...tapos para kang gago diyan.
MICO: Uhrmm...
mico: See? what are you so sad about then?
MICO: Onga no, hehe now that I think about it hehe I guess I shouldn't be sad...
mico: Hehe di ba? Just trust her, have faith in her and the things she said. Believe in the thing that binds the two of you (love perhaps?) then there are really no need for tears to fall...
MICO: I guess I just don't want to miss her...
mico: hmm, ok lang yan dude, understandable kung ganon lang hehe eto tissue :P

(hehe sometimes the voice inside me is really smarter)

Hehe wala lang I still miss her but I'm not lonely...

I guess it really is true when I say that when I think of her I get lonely but when I think of her again then I'm not so lonely anymore...
Currently Listening to:
Goo Goo Dolls - Iris (Live, July 04,2004 concert)

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Roller Coaster

Pasikot-sikot, may mga puntong tila maabot mo na ang mga ulap, may mga puntong halos sadsad na sa lupa ang iyong talampakan. Pero sa dulo masaya ka...(o nasusuka :P) Ganito ang rollercoaster. Tila ganito din ang buhay.

Tulad na lang ng linggong ito. May mga emotional ups and downs. Maraming tawanan at mayroon ding iyakan. Tulad na lang nung Martes ng gabi, sobrang lungkot ko noong araw na iyon, Isang kalungkutang umabot hanggang Miyerkules ng gabi. Hanngang Miyerkules ng gabi lang dahil nabawi ito ng mga sinabi sa akin. Tuloy ang saya hanggang Huwebes at Biyernes, at pagdating ng Sabado ng gabi (at Linggo ng madaling araw) ayun wasak nanaman.

(Pasensya na, ayaw ko na lang kasing idetalye kaya malabo)

Nakakaaliw, ang cute isipin na iisa lang ang dahilan nito. Sabi nga dun sa kanta
"My power, my pleasure, my pain..."

2 months, kaya ko yan... Kung iisipin walang dapat ikalungkot sa mga sinabi niya sa akin, Siguro ayaw ko lang kasing pakawalan pa yung anumang namamagitan sa amin. Maging FB/pagkakaibigan/pagmamahalan yun ayaw ko lang pakawalan siguro...Kahit na sinabi niya na nandun pa rin naman ang mga iyon pagkatapos ng 2 buwan...

Ang hina ko lang siguro. Pero hindi kaya to. Kakayanin...para sa akin, para kay Faye.

Nasa roller coaster ako... hindi ako nasusuka, masaya ako... Siguro hindi ako masisisi kung ayaw ko pang bumaba., kung hihiling akong ipagpatuloy ang mataas, mababa at pasikot sikot na daloy ng ganito...

Currently Listening to:
Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not the One

My Prayer

Malapit na mag 1 hehe alam ko 1 na yung start ng pagalis niya... Hmm pabaon na lang siguro or sumthin ewan... Di ko na rin naman alam, Basta I'll miss her.

(from Devotion's My Prayer)
God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm.
When the day is cold will you keep her warm
When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way
God will you let her know that I love her so
When there's no one there that she's not alone
Just close her eyes and let her know
My heart is beating with hers

Kakain na ako, tatawa na lamang dahil ang ulam namin ngayon ay Kare-Kare...

Currently Listening to:
Devotion - My Prayer

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Feelings

Welcome to my Feelings, Welcome to my Life...

Sle... Wasn't able to sleep last night. Was up for 3 hours listening to a single song. Trying to understand it, trying to get something from it. I dunno, I feel weird,shattered, stupid...

Took a bath a tad too early, that led into me arriving in school early as well (around 6:30). So early that I was the first to arrive in the room. So I went down and bought breakfast, went back to eat it and waited for the 7:30 class to begin (while still listening to that single song).

Felt really sleepy. I wanted to sleep in the library but I was afraiod that I might oversleep. Luckily Richmond and Chris wanted to sleep too.So we went to Berch to see where we could sleep. We were out of luck so we settled to sleep in the corridor. We slept on the area between the 2 doors of B207. Richmond leaning on the left, Chris lay down in the middle, and I slept on the right. Too bad no one took pictures I was really curious on how we looked like since Nikki told us that "Kulang na lang lata, pulubi na..."

We discussed some sad love poems in Mr. Remoto's class. Maybe it's because Valentine's day is approaching. The topic went to how Love is fleeting and that we must learn to let go and stuff like that. Hehe of course Sir Danton again looked at me and said "hindi ako bitter! HINDI! di ba Miguel?"...

It was kinda funny but I dunno I guess I took it a bit too seriously, in response I wrote a letter of some sorts. I wrote it during lit class hehe so Yes I wasn't really listening intently to the discussion but I was still paying some attention to it.

Ok let's just say that It's a letter to me, or to my Feelings:

Before I really believed in the Zen thinking of love being fleeting. Something like Love would not last forever. It won't last so we must cherish it whent it's there.

I guess it is more believable since this is what really happens in real life. Not unlike in hollywood and fairy tales where people always seem to live happily ever after.

But then I realized that to look at love that way (the zen way), would defeat the purpose of love. There would be a tendency to be pessimistic if I hold on to that kind of view.

I guess there should be balance. And I think little by little I'm understanding the balance between these two views.

I think that while it is true that love is fleeting, and that love would not last forever it is also not that significant. I'm starting to think that what is significant is fighting for that love, for trying to make that love last for eternity. Finding the courage to try and transcend the boundaries that people have set about love (about love not being eternal).

And I know that for this I would try to make it go on. That I would fight to make this "love" last forever. You may break me, shake me, hate me, but I will give it a shot. Any pain that I might go through because of this would not matter. I will not regret anything. I will give it a try. I won't give this up. Not now, not today, not ever...

Happy Valentines (12 days advanced)
Mico

And not long after I finished the "letter" the bell rung, and I went out of the room with a little bit clearer picture of my feelings.

Currently Listening to:
Devotion - My Prayer

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Initial D version 3

Hmm some things happened yesterday so before I go to the feature presentation hehe flashback muna...

Hmm Well the day was pretty routine at first hehe. Math (as usual I wasn't able to understand) and English (bored hehe).

Fun (?) started during lit class... For some reason Mr. Remoto keeps on telling me that he's not bitter ahaha. I guess it started when I joked about him being bitter well anywayz...

Then ES, hmm amazing race type lesson/presentation. Talo kami eh hehe 4th place lang ata ehehe (out of eight) pero at least it was fun. Then ayun perfect pa yung score ko sa quiz hehe neat...

Before PE shoot around muna. BUt nagkayayaan ng 3 on 3 (na naging 4 on 4) ewan Stupid shooting touch ahaha pero at least may mga nice plays ahaha.

PE 101 reporting lang ayun hehe I got a 37 out of 50 dun sa midterms hehe ayos na rin yun.

After Pe basketball nanaman, leche binaboy kaming dalawa ni Jc haha lupit nung kalaban namin eh, oh well at least uhm nakalaro ulit ako.

maaga ako nakatulog baduy naman

Now on to our feature presentation...

Uhm math, err I dunno hehe I guess Im understanding the lesson now ahaha. A few more practice questions should do the trick...

After math, Chris and I went to the Com arts parking hehe. We were waiting for Vanjo and Euric. Haha Saya, andami palang magandang tanawin dun... Hehe in the wrods of Euric "Shit Chong, naiinlove ako" wahaha...

We went to Megamall to play Initial D. Wahah saya, I finally won a battle race against Chris ahaha ayos to, hehe I really felt my Initial D skills improve hehe.

Ayun went back to School. Medyo 15 minutes late kami pero Ok lang hehe buhay pa naman...

Haha tuesday night ngayon hmm basta wala lang...

Currently Listening to:
Christopher Cross - Think of Laura