Tuesday, October 31, 2006

sa saliw ng yong pag tingin ang oras ay bumibilis...

Nakaramdam na ako ng antok bago ko pa man simulan ang blog na ito, subalit hindi ko pa talaga gustong matulog, gusto ko pa kasing makinig ng mga kanta at naisip ko na ayos din namang magblog habang pinapakinggan ko ang mga awiting nasa playlist ko ngayon.

Sa hindi ko malamang dahilan karamihan ng kantang kinahihiligan ko ngayon ay galing sa Sponge Cola, Nasa playlist ko ang Tuliro, Pasubali, Dragonfly (yung version na galing sa cd na pinamigay ata sa isang gig nila noong ang hit pa lang nila ay yung Crazy for you), Una, Lunes at Gemini (piano remastered version galing sa repackaged album). Kasama sa playlist ang Love You Only na kanta ng TOKIO at ang Your Love ng Alamid.

Dahil wala naman talaga akong ideya sa kung ano ang magandang itala ngayon sa blog ko, Ikwekwento ko na lang ang aking araw.

Uumpisahan ko sa pagpatak ng 12:00 ng madaling araw dahil medyo naalala ko pa ang nangyari. Naglalaro ako ng NBA Live 2007 sa PC habang nakikipagtext sa isang kaibigan, nang dumating ang text niya nakita ko na 11:58pm na pala (Linggo), Naalala ko na ang October 30, ay kaarawan ng kaibigan ko kaya ayun nagtext ako sa kanya ng Happy Birthday (muli Happy Birthday Jeerah!) tapos noon tinuloy tuloy ko lang ang aking paglalaro hanggang sa may isa naman akong kaibigan na tila hindi makatulog kaya text text muna (Iyah matulog ka na :P).

Umabot din siguro kami ng mga alas 3 ng madaling araw ng napagpasyahan ko na tama na kailangan ko na ng pahinga dahil gusto ko pang mag-gym mamaya, kaya ayun nagpaalam na ako at natulog. Makalaipas ang mga 4 o 5 oras na tulog, naligo na ako at nagpunta na sa MLSC fitness center o mas kilala bilang Moro gym hehe.

Kaso sadyang malas ata ang umaga kanina at medyo pinagtripan ako ng panahaon. Biglang bumuhos ang ulan habang naglalakad ako papunta doon sa gym, kaya ayun naging two tone yung pantalon ko napilitan na rin akong magtricycle dahil medyo malakas na rin talaga yung ulan. Nakaabot naman ako ng gym ng hindi mukhang bagong laba ang suot kong damit pero ayun lang basa pa rin.

Marahil siguro dahil sa puyat at lamig, medyo tinatamad ang katawan ko magworkout, pagkatapos lang ng onting buhat at takbo wala na suko na hehe parang masarap magpahinga pero yun nga hindi pa tapos ang araw, may basketball pa pagkatapos ng workout na to.

Mga 12:00 ng hapon kami pumunta ng covered courts para maglaro ng basketball. Ayos lang nakakapagod matagal tagal na rin ata akong hindi naglalaro ng 5 on 5 , idagdag pa diyan yung lamig nung hangin at yung pagod dahil sa pagwoworkout kanina at yun sabog na talaga yung paglalaro ko hehe. Pero kahit papano naman may mga maganda akong nagawa sa court, at sa istilo ko ng paglalaro basta may maganda akong nagawa wala na akong pakialam sa score hehehe.

Mga 3 oras siguro kaming naglalaro ng Basketball at ng mapagod na ay napagisipin naming kumain. Kaya punta na kami sa CR para maghugas at magbihis. Eh dahil hindi namin tinignan kung bukas yung shower area, nagpakanda hirap kaming maligo sa sink (oo tama maligo, kumpleto shampoo at sabon, nagawa na rin kasi namin ito dati). Nung medyo nabwisit na ako sabi ko baka naman bukas tong shower area, kaya tinignan ko at ayun nga, anak ng torotot bukas palaa yung bwiset na shower room.

Ang plano sana sa KFC katipunan kami kakain, kaso dahil walang parking ayun pumunta kami ng Eastwood. Eastwood lunes na lunes at alas 3 pa ng hapon, nakakapanibago at mukhang ghost town ang eastwood hehe. Ayun ang ending imbis na KFC naging Fazzolis ang kinainan. Masarap yung libreng tinapay, hindi ko lang alam kung masarap siya dahil masarap siya or dahil libre.

Tapos napagisipan na manood ng sine, yung pinagbibidahan ni Batman at ni Wolverine, yung The Prestige. pero dahil 4:30 pa lang noon at 5:20 pa yung next screening nagpunta muna kami sa Powerstation. Ganda rin ng timing dahil malapit na ang birthday ko, at dahil malapit na ang birthday ko meron akong free P200 load sa Powerstation so ayos. Nagamit ko yung 30 pesos doon sa 200 na libre sa Dream Catcher at well successful naman haha nakabingwit ako ng:
Tapos ayun na showtime na, ng paakyat kami sa escalator nakakita ako ng celebrity, nasa likod ko si Joey De Leon, papapicture sana ako kaso naisip ko na siguro gusto niyo ng private time kaya di ko na inistorbo, baka batukan pa ko o lumabas ako bigla sa wow mali mahirap na madiscover pa ako hahahaha

Pagkatpos ng kalahating oras ng trailers, sa wakas palabas na, sa totoo lang medyo inaantok ako nung una, malamang dahil sobrang antok na ako dahil sa kakulangan ng tulog, pagod sa workout at basketball at dami ng kinain (iba na ang libre). Pero unti-unti akong nahatak nung pelikula, maganda siya pero mas gusto ko si Wolverine kaysa sa magician. Aaminin ko na may katangahan ako ng isipin ko na medyo action packed yung pelikula (yung tipong magic na tinuturing eh yung mga tipong fireball at kung anuman) pano ba naman si Bale nakita ko sa Batman Begins, si Jackman sa X-Men tapos si Scarlet naman sa FHM at sa The Island so siyempre kala ko talaga medyo may mga amazing fight scenes pero yun nga wala. Pero maliban sa disappointment ko na yon masasabi kong naenjoy ko yung pelikula.

Pagkatapos nun uwian na, sabay ako kay alden hanggang katipunan tapos LRT na pauwi. Pagdating sa bahay, ayun ligo, online, laro, chat, at laro ulit tapos eto na, nakikinig na sa patapos na playlist at naghahanda ng matulog...

(sana may makagets kung bakit yan yung title ko)

Monday, October 30, 2006

Ocean Park 2

Minsan nakakatawa ang buhay, may mga panahong wala ka nang pakialam, hindi mo na iniisip kung paano mo gagawin ang isang bagay, at biglang Boom! walang pasabing showtime na, hindi mo na kailangang maghanda dahil ibibigay na sa iyo ang hinahanap mo.

Nakakaaliw dahil matapos ang unang episode ng Ocean Park di na gaanong dumampi sa isip ko ang mga dating plinano. Wala nang problema kung dadaanin ba sa biro, idaramay ang isang kaibigang ngayon ay nandoon na o anuman. Naisip ko na wala eh, tapos na lumipas na ang pagkakataon.

(siguro kahit papano mas malinaw to kaysa sa unang ocean park story, pero malabo pa rin )

Naisip ko tuloy parang ganito lang yan eh. Sabi nga sa nakaraang post, sarado na ang ocean park, wala ng mga dolphin. Pero bumalik ka sa lugar na yun, wala lang siguro kasi kahit walang dolphin, gusto mo yung lugar. Tapos makikita mo OI! may dolphin show na ulit pala. At hindi lamang basta bastang dolphin show, makikita mong nakapaskel ang mga impormasyon tungkol sa dolphin. At magagamit mo ang impormasyon na yun upang makakalap pa ng mas maraming bagay tungkol sa kinahihiligan mong dolphins!

(Sana may part 3)

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Pilosopiya...

I do remember during one of the Philosophy 101 classes earlier in the semester a discussion on what philosophy is. Many answers popped out of that discussion such as a method of thinking, a kind of organization of ideas, a perspective and a way of life. I think the discussion led to the class talking about the renowned philosophers as models for our own Philosophy. And while I was able to go through the Philo 101 class (hopefully i passed it) I still can't really put the thoughts in the writings of Fr. Ferriols, Parmenides, Heidegger, Marcel, Descartes, Plato, Luijpen or Tassi as a model for my own Philosophizing.

However, I do have one world renowned character who I believe could be a model for my philosophy.

Here's a sample of his thoughts (click images to enlarge):

Life in a nutshell I guess. In the words of a six year old kid and an imaginary tiger. Perhaps those philosophers mentioned above gave much sharper insights on life and living, with their deeper thoughts but I'd still pick Calvin over them anytime. I think Calvin is a pretty good example on how highfalutin words (like highfalutin) are not necessary in giving out good insights. Perhaps one of the reasons I had a difficult grasp of philosophy was the language that they used and Calvin and Hobbes really do give a good respite from all of that.

Life and Living?
Existence?
Sophon and Abstraction Free Living?

If only I could get Mr. Strebel to teach us Philosophy classes in terms of Calvin and Hobbes...

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Ocean Park...

Minsan nakakatawa ang buhay, may mga panahong handang handa ka na, napagisipan mo buong maghapon kung paano mo gagawin ang isang bagay at pagdating ng panahon kung saan show time na, at magagamit mo na ang hinanda mo, wala na, tapos na pala ang palabas. Nahuli ka na. Sorry na lang, next time na lang ulit...

Nakakaaliw dahil halos isang buong gabi kong plinano kung paano ko gagawin ang naisip ko. Dadaanin ba sa biro, sa pagdamay ng isang kaibigang wala naman doon. Noong matapos naisip ko bahala na, shotgun na lang, pero basta gagawa ako. Tapos ayun, pagdating ng kinabukasan, sabit pa bwiset hehe.

(oo alam kong sobrang labo niyan, pero ayaw ko lang kasing ibigay yung tunay na pangyayari dahil baka mapahiya lang ako haha)

Naisip ko tuloy parang ganito lang yan eh. Gusto mong makakita ng mga dolphin. Pumunta ka ng hong kong, kinausap mo na yung mga chinese na hindi mo maintindihan ang english para magtanong kung paano pumunta sa ocean park. Noong nasa lugar ka na, wala na sarado na pala ang ocean park, wala nang dolphin, maghanap ka na lang daw ng daga sa disneyland.

(alam ko siguro mga 3 o 4 na tao lang ang makakaintindi niyan pero sige lang)

Friday, October 27, 2006

Surprise...

Nakakagulat lang na minsan kapag akala mong sabog na ang lahat bibigyan ka ng buhay ng isang bagay na magpapangiti sa yo.
Hehe yeah! 3.5 sa Philosophy 101 Final Oral Exams , kahit papano nakabawi ako. Siyempre gusto ko ng A, pero 3.5 is good as well. (si Chino naka A haha astig).

Siguro nararapat lang na pasalamatan si Keb Soriano, dahil malaking tulong yung nagawa niya sa akin dito sa thesis statement na to hehe. Salamat din kay James at Jeerah na naalala kong kumakausap sa akin habang inaantay ko si Keb matapos dun sa ginagawa niyang thesis statements hahaha.a

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Sembreak...

Haven't really blogged much regarding the 1st sem, quite ironic since it is really one of the more event-filled semesters in my college life. So here's a photoblog of some sorts to recap some of the more noteworhty events in the 1st sem.

Third year, it's really quite amazing to realize that I've already been in college for three years. I guess Time really flies so fast. Sabi nga ni Hans dun sa signature niya sa emails... "Juniors na pala tayo..."

For some reason, the school decided to change the orientation of the id, pretty ok though, although i gotta admit it was a bit weird during the first few days.
There was also the SPEED amazing race thing, well it was fun but honestly I can't really remember much about it, save for that it happened a few days before Pat's birthday and he treated some of the members to yellow cab.

The reason I mentioned this event was that I saw these pictures on the computer. It reminded me just how much a wannabe photographer I am. These pics were taken using RJ's digital SLR and well I really would want to have one of my own. I'm not really looking for a top of the line model I guess, something that would help me in my hobby of taking pictures.



One of the things that made the 1st sem quite busy was the marketing class that I had. In hindisight I guess it wasn't really that hard but the thing with that class it that it required a lot of work. And for someone like me who tends to procrastinate and then cram, that class was probably not the best one for me.

So here's a picture I took while doing a case paper for marketing. I was in Starbucks and I was getting frustrated with staring at my laptop without anything to write so I just took some pictures. The digital camera was very unreliable and was really no better than a cellphone camera but luckily a pretty neat image came out in this one shot. As I said I guess I'm a photographer wannabe.


I had my history 166 class during this sem. And 20 percent of the class grade there was the field trip activity. It was on a Sunday, and it was fun but parts of it were really quite frustrating. Some of the places were flat out boring and we even encountered some engine trouble on the way home.

However, there was a part in the trip which I really enjoyed and this was the one where we went to bluroze farms. The place was really cool, it seemed very close to nature, very relaxing I guess. It was also quite scenic and me being the photographer wannabe that I am tried to take some scenic shots hehe.


Of course I wouldn't want to be left out so I asked my friend to take a shot of me as well haha.



One of the more tense moments of the semester came with the marketing final defense. An hour to really try to defend what we had been working on for the entire sem. The grade that we got was a bit below par (unfortunately not in golf terms) but I really believe it was a pretty fun experience that we had.



After the defense, we were all elated I guess, that we went to Teriyaki Boy to celebrate freedom. It was pretty cool that nearly the whole block was there, even Khristian who was supposed to be in Macau was able to drop by :)

Well, before we left Vanjo was taking pictures using Kathy's digicam and I had this shot which i really like for some reason ahaha here goes :)


After the marketing defense, was well another defense, this time for CS. I believe that I performed way better in here than I did in the marketing defense probably because I was in my element. So here's a shoutout to my groupmates and to James who helped us even if he was busy as well.

I guess there were a lot more events that were not mentioned. The ACTM sports fest,SOM week, the IAC games, the moments with the groupmates, countless encounters and conversations and many more. They all brought something great to my experiece. So I guess thanks for that, Here's hoping for an even better 2nd Sem!

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

(in)vulnerable?

It's finals week for Ateneo right now... despite the seemingly hectic pace of my school life for this semester due to the requirements of the different subjects (more on these on another post), for some reason I was still able to find time to type my thoughts.

It's this "some reason" that I want to focus on in this edition of my ramblings in life I call my blog. You see, I think I kind of understand why despite the stress of finals week, the hassles of school works and other miscellaneuos stuff, I'm still able to calm myself and play and do things that I actually enjoy.

I think it's because I've never really felt vulnerable to failure. This is not a show of how confident I am in my smarts and abilities but rather a (shall I call it) "defect" in my way of thinking. I think I am always able to find that trust, that confidence in myself when facing difficulty, may it be exams, defenses, reports, orals and the like. That belief that I can do it, that I would not fail, that I'll be able to make it through. I think this is the "kaya yan" mentality that I have.

This way of living would actually be useful if I had the mind to back it up, but you see I was not blessed with a genius mind, I think that what I was blessed with is a mind that's good enough. And yes, even I would say that going through life with this kind of mindset is a shitty way of living as I'm gonna be stuck in mediocrity. However, it also can't be denied, that as I coast in the things that I do (the essays, reports and panel defenses) I make it through, and sometimes what I would do would actually be deemed great, so I guess it's ok for now...

I would like to change though, in a way I would want to have a mindset that accepts its vulnerability, a way of thinking that would make me want to strive for more even if I know that what I would normally do would be good enough...

I guess I want to be vulnerable in a way, and the only way I see that it would happen is if I fail. Of course I wouldnt want to fail, so I guess Im stuck in this cycle until something hits me and makes me yearn to strive for more...

Oh well, I've got my history finals in around12 hours and again I'm still in that "kaya yan", "alam ko na yan" mode. I read the readings already and part of me believes that It's good enough although perhaps if I felt more vulnerable to failure, I would study more...

I'll see I guess. It could be a failure waiting to happen and this may actually be the one that wakes me up... but my mind only half believes me, up to now it still shouts "Kaya Yan!"

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

perhaps...

I was procrastinating some minutes ago, I was too lazy to do the last of my tasks for the 1st sem of this school year (writing additional code/text for the cs website to be presented on our defense and the case papers for marketing). As part of this procrastination routine I checked my friendster account and saw one of those bulletin posts.

That bulletin post was a common survey, one that was usually done by people who have some extra time in their hands. A few questions here and there, inquiries on your opinions on things around you.

Yes, as I said it was just a common survey, nothing to be taken too seriously, just some ramblings by a more likely than not bored person who's just passing some time. But for some reason, it opened something in me, it was able to make me ponder on things that were, that are, and those that would be.


Halos kalahating taon na rin ang lumipas ng binanggit ko ang linyang bumabalik sa akin ngayon. Isang linya na maituturing kong nagpabago sa aking buhay. Naalala ko na binanggit ko ang mga salitang yoon dahil sa halo halong damdamin ng poot, sakit, pagiintindi at pagmamahal...

Maaring ako lamang ang makakaintindi kung bakit ko sinabi ang linyang yon, pero ngayon na halos anim na buwan na ang lumipas mas lalo kong nakikita ang rason ng pagbitaw ko sa mga salitang "Hindi na kita kayang alagaan." Ngayon mas nakikita ko na kahit papano nahalata ko na nga ang ang bagay na nagudyok sa akin upang sabihin yun.


Perhaps I could attribute it to foresight or perhaps just an understanding of things as they happen. I guess during that time 6 months ago (and perhaps even before that) I already felt that there was something lacking in me, something that I would not be able to do or to give. Perhaps I felt that I was really becoming a hindrance to something, I am not saying that this is the main reason why i did the thing i did, but I would not be lying when I say that I took this into account.

I guess it is undeniable that I still do care for her, perhaps I wouldn't have read that bulletin post if I don't have any feelings for her anymore. But it's also, quite pleasing to see to feel that I was right in what I felt all along...

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

These Days...

Before I actually typed this blog, I read through many of my previous posts dating back to the start of this blog. I noticed that there was a time when I religiously posted nearly every day, but now posts come few and far between... I don't think it's really the hectic schedules or the lack of even that contributes to this but perhaps a reason that I already tackled before.

I think that it is partly a lack of inspiration to actually write these things. A lack of inspiration that stems from the realiztaion that as of now, no one would really care about what I write in this blog. As I wrote before, I guess deep in the heart of every blogger, is the yearning for someone to actually read the blog...

Currently Listening to:
Bamboo - These Days